Our beloved Leah has written an excerpt in the article entitled ‘Pilot Season 2017: Television is Changing (Talent Manager and Clients Perspective)’ written by Brian Medavoy.
Last season, I felt like a recently divorced, desperate, middle aged woman and I treated every audition like a date with George Clooney. Spoiler alert: Clooney is not interested in middle aged women.
If I walk into a room asking for approval, I’ve immediately shot myself in the foot. I’ve given away my power by putting my self-worth into someone else’s hands. And I’m completely disconnected from my creativity.
When I’m in the habit of demanding honesty within myself, I’m reminded that the only person who is responsible for who I am, is me. This removes the delusional reliance on other’s validation and empowers self-improvement. I gain strength in expanding my capacity and become less swayed by other peoples’ perceptions of me. Whether positive or negative, their opinions are theirs, not mine. And vice versa.
I’m not always able to maintain this head space, but when I do, I feel brave enough be open and exposed in the room. My goal becomes learning and growing, not gaining approval or validation. Afterwards, I feel enriched instead of drained. Yes, there are still many auditions I lose out on, but even when the result isn’t a job, I don’t feel that I’ve wasted my time.
The article, along with excerpts by other actors, can be read in full here.